not afraid to ask big questions
Wherever I choose to settle…
I find myself,
Meeting a guide or two…
A particular type of guide always comes up.
Being;
Insanely inquisitive,
Perfectly poised,
(But somehow at the same time…)
Skittishly comical.
I’m fascinated at how they survive the treacherous stunts they do!
Masters at living in the moment.
May I introduce to you….
All the way from the sixth dimension…
Here to help humans remember who the fuck we are…
Cats!
Bubba camouflaged in the compost.
The thing is about being human, being here on this earth is we’re always fighting. Fighting against our own bodies and the external. It’s almost like we feel we’re going to fall apart if we don’t keep it together, turn into a pile of goo on the floor.
I used to always be fighting. Thinking the worst (that the government are selling our soul’s energy ect..) How do these thoughts serve me? How are they impacting my life?
I took a big step; letting go. I stopped trying to control every outcome. Surrendering my life to the universe.
Welcoming
Each moment,
As it arrives.
Receiving the beauty and pain of life.
Feeling it deeply.
That’s where the magic is.
You see us humans have this tendancy to be on the never ending quest of self improvement.
Which is great and all…
But how often,
Do you stop and appreciate,
How you’re already whole.
You’re already a divine being.
A child of the universe.
~ Soak it in ~
I’ve been ruminating about this post for a while now. I’m treading carefully, as I don’t want to come across as preachy. This faith is different to religions. As only You can get through your awakening. No one can drag you there. It’s totally in your hands.
Once you awaken, all these downloads will come in and it becomes painful to keep quiet and pretend that everything is normal.
The universe knew that I was struggling to write this, so they sent messages to inspire. Most of the messages came through conversations with random people. If you ever have an urge to say something to someone, it’s probably the universe guiding you. A small comment might seem insincificant, but it may be a puzzle piece for someone. You have more of an impact than you think you do!
Someone messaged me saying
“Energy. That sounds like a fairytale.”
That’s because it is! The media is full of clues about how the universe works. What’s the main thing we learn from fairytales?
Love Always Wins.
In fairytales, it always gets to a point where it looks like the villains are about to win. But everytime, something miraculous happens, the heroes pull through, and save the world.
The same will happen in our reality.
Having a chat with a Christian lady, she was talking about armegedon and saying that it didn’t make sense how it is predicted that “People will fight with God.”
God is inside us.
Before that beautiful loving energy can come through, we need to shed the paradigms that keep us comfortable. As the old paradigms are consumed by flames, we may cling on to them or try to revive them, this won’t work and just lengthen the painful process until you surrender to the darkness.
After the fire has settled, a beautiful Phoenix will rise from the ashes. That’s you, fully in your power!
When people talk about “the end of the world” they normally expect huge dramatic things to happen externally. It might do, but this will be a reflection of the inner shift that we’ll be going through.
No one is coming to save you.
You’re the Hero!
I’m soo proud of you, for all the work you’ve already done on yourself and all that you will do in the future. It’s been hard, and it will continue to get harder.
Have faith light being. We are giving birth to a new world. Birthing is not an easy process.
This song came out last year when I was having my awakening, gives me goosebumps and makes me cry everytime!
If you haven’t read my last post I suggest that you go read it, otherwise this might not make much sense.
I’m not going to lie, after publishing my last post a sense of fear came over me.
I did some shadow work, to find out where this fear came from. It boiled down to the fact, that the ones who currently rule the physical world, do not want us to remember this. Throughout history they have murdered shamans, lightworkers, witches, healers. Not only killing them, but taking the knowledge and techniques, to use to their advantage and making it harder for us to remember. (I’ll go further into how they do this in another post)
I had a long discussion with my spirit guides, I was making loads of excuses why I couldn’t do it. They lovingly reminded me “remember who you are” What do they mean by that? This might sound like an odd question, but do you know who you are?
Without labelling yourself as what you do, your interests, job, titles, roles, without all that, who are you?
Are you your thoughts? In your head say the word: hello. Can hear that voice in your head? You are the listener, the one observing the voice, not the voice itself.
So how do you find out, who you are? By working on yourself, practicing meditation. No thoughts. Becoming nothing. You will meet your higher self. Your true essence.
Your soul will leave the body and you’ll experience the purest form of love and light. It’s beautiful and feels soo familiar, like coming back home. You’ll realise that you are in the presence of god and that you are an extention of that energy.
I don’t often use the word god as I feel like religion has tainted that word, I prefer source energy/universe/spirit. But feel like I need to say god, so you can appreciate how powerful you are.
There’s no need to be scared of the ones ruling the physical world. We’re made of the strongest force in the universe; Love.
The truth is reveling itself. Everything will be exposed. This is why many people are having awakenings. My purpose is to help others on their awakening journey.
You might be thinking that I’m crazy. But I reckon there’s another voice in your head saying that it might be true. Probably because one of the rules of the universe, is that this knowledge can’t be a complete secret. What’s going on has to be at least indirectly mentioned. There’s soo many clues in song lyrics, flims, books, symbology and myths.
I love learning lyrics to songs, and that really helped me realise what’s going on. So perhaps I’ll share a song that’s relevant to what I’m talking about in each blog post.
This tune puts a smile on my face and great to have a boogie to! Coldplay are such an underrated band in my opinion.
There’s alot more coming out of my big mouth about the awakening! Follow me so you don’t miss out on my posts. Thanks for having an open mind and reading.
Wandering through Mother Nature’s Kingdom. Where she is recognised as the Queen. Her shapely legs take up all the space they need, up to the heavens she proudly reaches. She’s an ancient mother, covered in cracks and crevices, her wrinkles make her look even more beautiful. The smell of rich fertile soil, wafts through the air, luring seeds.
Admiring the joyful song of the winged angels, when a squeeky little “Oi” pierced through. I slowly turned my head left to right, in search of the noise, again it chimed in “Oi you! I’m the acorn!”
I gently picked up the Acorn that was desperate for my attention.
“Do you know how a tiny acorn like me, will grow into a mighty oak tree?”
Tilting my head back in thought I replied “How do you grow into a mighty oak tree?”
“Listen up Light One, A special formula is encoded, Inside Every Living Thing.
It’s called the Seed of Life, This pattern naturally Creates Harmony and Abundance.
If I were to fall into the trap of comparing myself to the big trees, forgetting that I’m made up of the same greatness. I wouldn’t grow. As that would be planting seeds of doubt.
So Light One, have faith, in yourself, in what we’re made of. Flower of Life, let your abundance flow it’s Your Birth Right!”
Us humans are intresting creatures.
We came from the Earth Mother, Plants that turned human.
Consider how alike we are to plants:
Just as roots draw up nutrients from the Earth. We eat food that’s from the earth.
Our bodies do the work of balancing the life giving energy from the sun, with the purity of water.
Plants thrive when they’re in a community; picture a lush forest. We also need each other for friendship and support.
Plants require a home. Some form of stable ground where they can spread their roots.
Houses are like pots, A safe space, where we feel comfortable to spread our roots.
After travelling, I came back to my childhood pot. The shadows of my roots welcomed me back. Reconnected with my past self, Honouring the younger version of me. Thankful for how much I’ve grown and learnt.
As the plant grows, the roots take up all the space that’s available. A pot bound plant needs more earth to take in nutrients, but most are resilient enough to survive being pot bound. When they’re eventually repotted into a bigger home the plant experiences stress, until they have adjusted to their new home where they can thrive once more.
I liked my childhood pot, but had outgrown it. I felt a call to live in a totally new place. So I made myself homeless again. With a handful of my belongings on back, I drifted through England.
Uprooted, living in hostels, no stable ground to claim as my own, it dulled my light. I was in survival mode, didn’t have it in me to do what I love; create.
After relentlessly messaging landlords, I eventually found a pot I could call home in Exeter.
The first few days I was feeling down in my new home. The air was really thick and muggy, which added to my blues. Sleeping with the windows wide open, but no breeze graced me.
One day I was woken up at 5:30 am by heavy rain. A wide smile spread across my face. Thank you beautiful rain! I ran outside dancing, singing “FEEL THE RAIN ON YOUR SKIN…”
I looked up the song, and the lyrics resonated so well with my situation. The universe is always talking to us. I’ve linked in the version with the lyrics so you can dance and sing to it too!
Thanks for reading! Expect more regular posts as I’m feeling the divine creative energy run through me.
It’s been a while since I wrote something and actually published it on here!
Mainly because I’ve been dealing with my own shit. When certain negative emotions arise, I like to take step back, analyze my brain, by asking myself questions; to find the root of the problem. This is called Shadow work.
So if you want to know how my brain works, and probably yours too, as we’re all pretty similar, carry on reading…
I was out in the fancy part of Rome.
The people were like the buildings; ozzing elegance and class.
Look down at myself, stain on my top, worn out boots, no make up, hairy armpits.
Feelings of inadequacy start bubbling up inside.
When we feel jealous of someone,
There’s two paths our mind can take.
Either, strive to be “better” than them.
This might sound like a healthy mindset, because this is what society encourages. But seeing others as competition is toxic. It can create an addiction mentality, because they’ll always be someone “better” than us.
Instead of looking within ourselves; we are taught to look outside. This mindset underpins capitalism. Which explains why depression and anxiety are prevelent today.
I call myself out, when I notice my mind going to dark places, for example with negative self talk.
“Oi thought! This mind is a place of LOVE.”
Although I’m an anti capitalist badass, we live in a capitalist world, where the conditioning is clever, we don’t even realise it. It can easily infiltrate our minds. Becoming a constant self love battle.
My initial feelings towards the fancy people was completely the opposite of striving to be like them…
“Bourgeoisie bullshit” I huffed to myself. “These people are soo fake, they only care about how they look.”
Why can’t I admire someone’s beautiful outfit, without it triggering something within me?
For me, it triggered hurt feelings, of not being able to fit in with others.
The phrase “If you can’t join them, beat them” shows how both mentalities come from the same place. Both see others as competition. Shaming others, becomes a survival tactic.
Not only does it alienate people, but it puts people into boxes, based on how they look/what they do. We like to put labels on things “good” “bad” but it’s not soo black and white.
We cannot be defined by our choices, by how we look, or even our thoughts. We are much greater. I believe we are all connected to the divine; source energy.
Basically we’re all gods and goddesses walking the earth, that have forgotten how much power we have.
Okay so we’re part of a capitalist society, but we can protect our heart and mind from toxic behaviours.
Let’s stop shaming each other.
Admire differences. Empower others.
Thanks for reading! Do you relate to anything that I’ve written? Does your mind go through similar thought patterns?
I’m going to be writing more about how internerlised capitalism affects our minds. Stay tuned…
Ending the story between myself and this Athenian malaka.
As Sometimes,
We need to take a step back,
Say Sorry,
Otherwise,
It will Keep,
Waying You Down.
Forget it,
Really Forget it.
I know this goes against what I wrote in another blog post, but what can I say, I’m developing!
Do Not Let Your Trauma Define You.
That’s Easier said than done I know…
Let’s Start…
Analysing the Words We Use.
Let me tell you a Secret…
Each time We Tell Ourselves,
We are Not Good Enough,
Our Brain takes that As Fact,
And You will Become Just That…
Not Good Enough.
Be careful with language.
“I was hurt, it destroyed me”
Or
“I was hurt, I am healing”
Can you see the difference that has?
This Is Not Avoiding Your problems.
Be Honest,
Write down Your Problems,
I’ve been putting mine in the Fire.
Feels very freeing
Surrendering it to the Universe.
Anyway I go off tangent easily!
To The Athenian malaka,
I’m Sorry,
You were
Born + Raised
In a Toxic System
Taught to Hate Yourself
It sucks.
But it helps me
Understand…
The Way You Are,
Your Behavior,
Was Learnt
At a Young age.
You saw Other Men,
Disrespecting Women.
And You Thought it was
Normal.
I’m Sorry.
That is the Question…
I came across an athenian man’s instagram account.
Claiming to be a “Media News Company”
His content?
Pictures of A WombAn
with captions such as:
“pimple monster” “ugly” “catfish”
Fire In My Belly!
How Dare he!
MisTreatMySister!
WombAn Rising.
Patriarchachy crumbling.
Do Not Understimate Us.
We Are More Connected to the Earth Mother.
We Fight
With
Our
Whole
Mind
And
Heart.
Intuitively Stronger.
Strong Instincts.
Protect. Love. Defend.
Go on Make Fun of Me!
You Can’t You Cunt.
Because I love Myself.
I Want to Make myself Look Weird
Because I AM Weird!
And Proud.
No Place For Bullying Here.
I Am Warrior Earth Goddess.
I Do Not Want To Fight.
When We Fight Others,
We Are Fighting Ourselves.
We’re All Connected
Don’t you get it?
NO! You’re Not Getting It!
We Are Sentient
We Are Sick of It
Peaceful Protesting
Speaking Out
Against Crimes
Towards The Earth.
Us Because We
The Earth.
Using Non Violent Direct Action.
Protests, Petitions, Demonstations
But When The
Corrupted Patriarchal System
We Are currently Being Oppressed by
Does Nothing To Support Us.
We Take Matters into Our Own Hands.
Does anyone else get waaayyy too excited and start loads of different projects?
I can’t help it, my mind is buzzing with ideas!
I did give myself a little pep talk this morning though, like Naomi you need to finish, before starting another project! If not I’ll end up with loads of unfinished bits and bobs and get overwhelmed at what to do.
I wanted to add this song to my last post. But thought Naaah!
Let’s do a whole post dedicated to this tune!
Watch Pat Benatar sing her heart out and tell an emotional story through dance and song.
An Authoritative dad yells at his daughter.
Young Rebellious Woman Roars back.
The loving mother looks at her partner like a scared child. Distraught over his harsh punishment towards their daughter. Without even discussing it with her.
Toxic masculinity at its finest.
Tightening her grip on her wedding ring. Shaming herself because she’s not strong enough to leave this asshole of a man.
Kicked out of her Home. Feeling like an Outcast. We see her story unfold. She becomes a woman of the streets. Men constantly lingering around her. Defiantly singing past them.
Enters in a smokey room…haha I just had too!
People moodly staring. We’re introduced to a creepy guy with a silly grin.
Boring night at the club; everyone looks depressed.
When we hear a woman scream.
She’s being harassed by that creepy guy!
Strong Women draped in rags emerge on the dance floor. Support is here. Dancing with Power and Unity.
The Man is looking really freaked out!
I’m surprised they dance together! Then again it is a music video Naomi! There’s fierce dances like Paso Doble that represent fighting. I’ve been watching too much strictly come dancing lol
She chucks holy water to cleanse the toxic masculinity in him. He touches her without her permission. Without fear she bats him away. Shimmying out the door with her girl gang.
Out in the daylight we can really see the amazing outfits the women have! Love the bright clashing colours. The 80s! What a cool time heh?
They thank and bless each other before going their separate ways.
Finishing with Pat Benatar strutting her stuff towards the sunset.
Beautiful.
BIG mouth Naomi