I don’t like doing what I’m told, even if its by my higher self, aka me the one that knows everything.
My ego is like “I did all this inner work that lead to a spiritual awakening, which was incredible and terrifying, just so I can spoon feed people what I’ve learnt. Bitch please, they’re called ancient secrets for a reason. Do the inner work you’ll find out, cause it’s literally encoded in your dna.”
During meditation my higher self explains
“It’s Your Purpose to share what you have found. You can try to run away from it, but it will only leave you feeling frustrated and unsatisfied, because deep down this is what your soul is meant to do.”
Ego releases a loud sigh “I’m fucking cursed”
“It’s a gift!” laughs higher self
“Look up the meaning of your last name…”
My last name is Bott. Did a google search to find that the name has roots in the German language and means ‘messenger emissary’. I looked up the meaning of ’emissary’ and it came up with; ‘a person sent as a diplomatic representative on a special mission.
“Sounds intense. Now I know how Joan of Arc felt.
How can I put into words what I’ve experienced?” moaned Ego
“You’ll find the words. Or rather the words will find you. Don’t force it. Play with it. Why so serious?”
Best friend Jesus said be like a child. That means connecting with your inner child. My inner child hasn’t introduced themself yet in this blog post, and that’s okay, letting them know that they can.
I really cherish my inner child. She sings at the top of her lungs, dances until she’s out of breath, rolls down hills, makes compost soup, builds fairy dens and believes in magic.
Basically I see myself split into three main people. (There’s loads more but I tend to focus on these three)
Higher Self= All knowing soul connected to source.
and everyone around you also knows everything.
Everyone considered themselves as one
Would there be any point to life?
but it’s boring.
we need to play
in the realm of the physical world
why we have created this
to do just that
Se pa ra tion
to the greatest song of all time
The Verse of The Uni
Before coming to earth we undergo a process,
where we forget who we are.
Life is a game.